Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand, or with the breadth of his hand marked off the heavens? Who has held the dust of the earth in a basket, or weighed the mountains on the scales and the hills in a balance?
To celebrate cinco de mayo last week, Kyle and I went to the doctor, and he was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes.
We’re dealing with it. As I keep reminding Kyle, this is new, foreign, and unwanted. We don’t want this disease. We don’t want the anxiety, the frustration, and the pain that comes with it. But, then again, God didn’t really ask our vote on that matter.
However, I am not blaming God for this illness. No, I am taking – or at least trying to take – the opposite route: I want to praise Him.
Even though my husband was diagnosed with diabetes, there is no long-term damage to his kidneys, liver, or any other organ.
Even though my husband was diagnosed with diabetes, it’s not cancer or something worse.
Even though my husband was diagnosed with diabetes, we have such an amazing group of friends and family who called/texted/visited to make sure Kyle was okay.
We found out an answer that day; he didn’t have to endure more tests to determine what was causing his rapid weight loss.
We are both pro-active fighters, which means we’re getting a handle on this disease right now and making sure we take care of it the best way possible. We’re both used to research, and we’re both becoming quite knowledgeable about diabetes.
We caught it now, not six months from now or six years from now, when long-term damage could have been done.
So, see? We have been blessed. =)
I talked with a friend recently about various spiritual matters, issues that I was/am dealing with, and she made a good point: God sometimes doesn’t heal us in the way we want. Would I choose for Kyle’s diabetes to disappear? IN A STINKING HEARTBEAT. But that’s not what God gave us. We’ve been dealt this hand in life, and praise God that it’s not something worse. So what do we do now?
We praise. We worship. We show how God has been good to us even through this trial. We trust Him; we only have our limited, sinful human eyes to see this world. We don’t see what God sees, but I hold true to two worldviews that I’ve always had:
1. We live in a sinful world that is not perfect.
2. God knows our pain, knows our heart. And he loves us all.
With those two points in mind…how can I not praise the One who gave me my wonderful husband, my supportive family and friends, and these doctors who are working so hard for Kyle?
I will remain confident in this; I will see the goodness of the Lord. And I will sing of His goodness.