This is what God the Lord says — he who created the heavens and stretched them out, who spread out the earth and all that comes out of it, who gives breath to its people, and life to those who walk on it: "I, the LORD, have called you in righteousness; I will take hold of your hand. I will keep you and will make you to be a covenant for the people and a light for the Gentiles, to open eyes that are blind, to free captives from prison and to release from the dungeon those who sit in darkness.
It's amazing how much I change and still stay the same.
Last year I went through a "re-creating" of myself, I guess you'd say. When insanity happens, that's what you've got to do. You evolve, or you stagnate.
I always think that I'm glad I am no longer the person I was a year ago, or two years ago, or five years ago. It's growth. I want to be a better person, therefore I continually change to mirror Christ's love. It's an uphill battle, but I have my running shoes.
I like to believe that I'm a better person than I was before. Don't we all? We'd like to think our experiences mold us into wiser, kinder, gentler people. That's what I like to imagine, at least.
But I don't know if I've really changed all that much or if I've just said that I've changed.
I may have changed one bad habit, but have I adopted another in its place?
Do I really show Christ's love, or is it just to people I've deemed worthy?
I'm looking for a second chance for myself, a chance to crush my pride and open my eyes to the needs of this world -- traits I thought I had. It's a second chance to the doors I closed.
Sigh. I'm not mopey today or depressed, I promise. Hubby and I are making homemade pizzas tonight and watching Battlestar Galactica (yes, I think I already mentioned I'm a major nerd). This just stems from from the sermon last night and a short talk with an old friend.
(For those of you who know me personally, this has NOTHING to do with the crazy people in my life. That is a dangerous situation in all facets.)
So here's my second chance, starting June 1. I'm down with it. ;)
P.S. I go to my first doctoral class Thursday. Eek!! I'm so excited!